Fade

Time will tell
Ticking through the day and night
Hours slowly slipping by
It will tell me all is well

All the hurt and fear and pain
Growing fainter, healing slower
Dimming like a worn out bulb
Fading like summertime

I'm waiting to be healed
But I'll never truly be whole
Because I've given a part of me away
And I can't have it back

So this shadow
Incomplete and unfulfilled
Will watch the time tick
And wait for Spring.

End of Days

Dangling, I wave you over your inevitable fate
I am about to douse you
Drench you
Scald you
Suck the life out of you

After your life blood is flowing from you
Swirling around the steaming water
Blending, melting, dissolving
As a further insult I will smother you
In a sticky yellow mess

Then finally, I will jab you with metal
Beat you vigorously
Before pulling you out
And rudely discarding you
You are no good to me anymore

But the tea is delicious.

Stability

Growing and reaching to the sky
The tree stands, majestic and tall
It's round trunk is a fixture
Immovable and impenetrable

Though it changes through the seasons
It constantly harbors life
In spring time, the green leaves unfurl
Heralding in new hope for a good year

The summer brings sunshine and warmth
And the tree provides shade
While every fall, new acorns are shed
Creeping through the grass, trying to grow

And then the long cold winter
Bare and brown, but slowly breathing
The years all pass like this
Never changing. never slowing

And still the lingering oak tree
Stands proud and tall
While the busy world changes around it
How nice standing still must be.

Chilled

It is cold here
My breath mists gently
Adding white to balance the grey

People are hurried, bundled
Snuggled in wool and fleece
Scarves pulled tight around necks

In my house it is louder
Heat running, water boiling
More blankets, more tea

The cold slows it all down
Makes the nights seem longer
Makes me want to stay in bed

But the tea is nice
The blankets are nice
Being bundled is nice

Winter has a few perks

Unexpected

Did you know that I loved you
The first time I kissed you?
Did you know that I worshiped
The ground that you walked on?
Did you see in my eyes
That you're all that I wanted?
Did you feel in my touch
That you're all that I needed?

I never meant to fall in love
I never meant to lose myself
I never meant to walk this winding road
And now I'm here with you
And there's no place I'd rather be

Did you know that you stole my heart
The first time that you told me
That you loved me
And now when we're apart
I wish that I told you that I love you
More than I do.

Frozen

Write me a letter
Paint words on a page that whisper sweetly
Telling me beautiful stories of our life

One day, when it is cold and drafty
I will take them out of a box to read
And each one will be a picture of our past

When my hands are thin as the paper
I might show them to our granddaughter
So that she understands how long love can last

Maybe some day, they'll be kept in a frame
Memories of long ago people
Who stand frozen in time, frozen in words

Write me a letter
Tell me of the long life we are going to have
Paint our future with your words.

Sick

My heart hurts
Lovesick, homesick, comfortsick

All I want is to be held
Rocked
Comforted until I fall asleep

I need someone to care
I want to be put first, above all else
Worshiped, revered, held sacred

Not a frightened lonely little girl
I need your strength to pull me through this
If only you would open your eyes
And see that I'm struggling